hatred.

as of last night. i've learned from a very BiG lesson.
from being careful about taking certain pictures to
my TRUE family.

i just wanted to take this time to thank thee lord
up above for blessin me with thee BEST family i
could ever ask for. thee lord put me on this earth
to see if i could survive. && he taught me that you
have to looose certain people in yer life in order to
become stronger. & i'm oh sooooo greatful for that!

yesterday we went & performed for luisa alatini's
work & it turned out GREAT. haha we performed
for thee disabled && it was such a blessing to see
their BiGGEST smile on their faces. i looooved it.
it made me think about how precious life is & how
ungreatful i am for not accepting how tough life is.

after that we went to our church for the youth.
each family had to perform for their family to raise
money in our church. it was my best friend sepi's
family's turn sooo we ALL performed a number
& there was sooo much haters talking about us
right in FRONT of us. it hurt us all sooo much
because they don't know how much it's been
hurting us. i held in my tears because i wanted
to stay strong for not only myself but for those
who were hating on us to show that we weren't
offended. but it came to my family's turn && it
just hit me. i thought of my mom && thought
how life would be if she was still here. i miss
her sooooo much. && thee tears kept falling
while my liittle sisters performed for the croud.
many thought i was crying about the drama when
in reality i was just crying for my mom. i loooooove
&& miss her soooo much.looove you mom